grateful

Who said that life would be easy here. I came here since I follow my inner call. Although my friends decided to stay inside the safe circle but I have decided to walk on my own path. But then I found that here.. I also see that people tend to be inside each own circle.. It’s so difficult to find a friend with the same spirit. However I’m so grateful of life.. I became so busy, but I do understand that busy means that I use my time optimally..

But suddenly I woke up and realized that I’m already at the age when I should decide which path I should strictly choose. I’ve prepared for years until this time happen but still.. when this comes in front of my face now.. I still feel something.. some scare.. some small sounds that tell me to stay inside my safe circle..

No, since the first time I have decided to get out from my safe circle. I believe that I can improve my self better. I have been given chance and now I just need to strive for my best. It’s not easy I admit.. Some feelings here said that this is not exactly 100% I want but hey.. who in this world can ask anything and get 100% as what he asked..

I’m not a king.. I’m an ordinary person but with extraordinary spirit.. My spirit is my treasure.. yet, I admit sometimes it hurts to be alone.. it hurts to see that other people who just stay lazy and wasting time, money but still able to maintain that attitude..

No self -pity.. 頑張ります!

Lead us not into temptation

To persevere and to persist are life-time progress. Not difficult to do but it’s also not difficult to follow the temptation instead. We need to have guts, we need to have inner strength. It seems not enjoyable but it leads to better satisfaction. Keep this in your heart, practice in your daily life. First level is difficult but you’ll get use to it in next levels. Of course upper levels have tougher mission but we’re born to survive from them. I believe in myself and why don’t you believe in yourself.

Perseverance, Sincerity and Humanity

It is better to be criticized, as it is a proof that those people love you, instead of be ignored as it means that you’re considered as a guest all the time. I feel this much recently. I have found something special with people around me. They are just unique and different, which made me feel I come to the right place. In the past, most people I know follow one unwritten rule and it caused me feel sick about it sometimes. Even me, I did tried to follow the same rule, yet recently I realized that it’s not suitable for me.

But the people around me now, they do not follow this rule. They have character, they persevere, they are sincere and they show better humanity. They have different eyes, in sense that those eyes are not judging. They work in great detail as a hobby. They are simple, they don’t care about fashion. They just fulfill their daily needs and that’s all.

I just feel grateful, I do.

going where the respect blows

Instead of going to a famous and high pride place, sometimes it’s better to go to where we are respected. When we are respected, we must feel comfortable, and by being comfortable, we can develop onto becoming productive. And by producing something useful and good for the society, we gain respect more and that’s how the cycle works.

laughing proud bast*rd

A guy came into new place. He felt unconfident due to the popularity of the place. He had prepared so much since he didn’t want to be underestimated in the new place. Yet the people of the place just do the ordinary live. They don’t  bluff, they show respect. But the respect was mistakenly understood by the guy. He thought he just realized that the people of the place are stupid. Then he was proudly laughing. Unecessary smile was shown. And that time he was the one who underestimated other people.

I wonder what he would think when he know the reasons behind the place’s popularity.. Ah! Forget it.. I don’t want to be the same with that guy..

secret

Would anything be happenned if we only imagine about it? I am not sure about it. Well, it probably would but for me it’s not related with science-fiction yet maybe it can be explained this way. When we imagine something, realize or not actually we become focus on that thing. Especially if we go into details and we get better picture about the thing. By doing this, actually we give command to our body unconsciously to get the thing. Unconsciously we make plan and target to get it. But the result is uncertain. I don’t think just by doing this we surely get the thing but actually we try to get close to it.

And if we successfully get it, it’s not only because of ourselves yet it is because of HIM. I believe He will help us if we really understand what we want. And we seriously put our effort on getting it.

(-_-)

I am supposed to be happy yet I am not. Dunno why..

mild heart, mind and soul

i believe every person in this world has a role in life and it is stupid to assume that we can find two similar roles among those roles. Based on this, there is no standard definition of successfulness which can be uniformly applied to every person. So it is better for everyone to find and understand his/her role in life and go on with it and strive for it. But it is not rare to find people surrounding which try to define any other person’s role. They start saying that it is stupid to do this and to do that. That a thing is better than the other while in fact they do not know anything about it. Just say it. They’re saying it since they’re hurt inside. They haven’t found their roles yet they feel insecure since a person has already found it. Due to this, it is better for everyone to have a mild heart, mind and soul to understand the role in each one’s life. It is better to have them so everyone can face the other people, especially they who judge, mock, disturb, with a smiling face. And it is better to have them so everyone can be strait-laced and keep on moving.

Go on with your own role.
and let your heart, mind and soul always be mild.

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Ubuntu Studio Customized

check out my customized Ubuntu 9.04. It is a combination of gdm-themes, ubuntustudio, avant-window-navigator and screenlets. For me, I love it better than Mac OS or Windows. Are you interested in trying? =)

Excited of improvement

Waking up from depression, I realize one thing today. What matters to me which makes me being optimistic with my life is improvement. I found one book today which I bought when I was a sophomore. I opened the index and found the book is really related to my current job. It was funny since I felt like the book stroke me. It felt like my body was injected with ecstacy (okay, I have never tried it and I don’t want to). What I mean here is I felt like becoming optimist of my life suddenly. I felt like I want to read the book until finish and I am excited about receiving the knowledge from the book.

And when I came home, I saw that a small table-tennis store was open. So I stopped there and bought the table-tennis balls. It’s been one year since the last time I played table-tennis in Tokyo and imagining that I will be able to practice again makes me more excited.

Just based on those two things, I got a conclusion. A person will be excited in his life when he/she is able to improve his/her skills and when he/she feels the improvement. This, of course, will happen as long as he/she enjoys what he/she is working. I believe that understanding this would put more value in our life.